It's that time of year again. The Holidays. I used to go all out at Christmas time. Lights outside, cards with that yearly update letter, decorations all inside the house. Last year I did nothing. Just couldn't after losing Danny in August. It was too soon. This year, I'm going to make the effort. It will never be the same, but one has to move forward.
So today I wrote my annual Christmas letter. Some of our friends actually told me they missed it last year. I try to make it funny and interesting. I don't tick off every little detail of what we've done the past year. Sometimes I add pictures. The thing is, I feel a little guilty. My life has continued without Danny. It's not fair.
Tonight I will have a Colorado Bulldog, get out my storage box of Christmas cards, and update my list. Over the years, I've saved some cards that were meaningful to me. I've saved all the picture cards - I've watched all my friends' kids grow up through those cards. There are some funny ones in there, too. It's a pretty big storage tub. Yeah, I'm a saver!
So tonight, Christmas season officially begins for me. Let's see if I make it through. Thank God for my husband, friends and family.
